The Fog Is Lifting
I‘ve been missing in action for a couple days and this year I’m gonna be more transparent as to why. For the past few days I’ve been fighting a depression episode of pure funk and I couldn’t shake it no matter how much I tried. When that happens I tend to withdraw, not because I want to hide although that is part of it. More so it is because
- for me the best management technique involves those who are closest to me and
- no one wants to hear a bunch of depressing spew all the time.
I asked those closest to me to pray because I believe that prayer works and changes things. I took a break from my blog, YouTube channel, even Twitter and FaceBook didn’t see much of me. I know this pregnancy and the hormone stew that comes with it exacerbates any funk I get into … I also had some life stresses that were weighing on me and THEN found out my favorite uncle had passed away over a week prior in a pretty nonchalant way. It was a mix of situational and biological reasons, but I can say that today I felt the fog lifting.
I’m sharing this because I pray it will help someone. It’s not always sunshine, lemon drops and unicorn tears over here … but ultimately it is always well.
When peace like a river attendeth my way,
When sorrows like sea billows roll,
Whatever my lot, Thou hast taught me to say
It is well … it is well with my soul.
21 Comments
Tia Dantzler
I totally understand sometimes a break is imperative!! I pray in agreement with you for peace of mind, comfort and most of all that your JOY may be restored!! Congrats on your baby news!!
glamazini
Thanks Tia 🙂
Latoya
Welcome back ini, I pray for continued restoration and peace in your life
glamazini
Thanks
lsa
God bless you. I appreciate your honesty. I hope this warm, helpful post helps someone.
glamazini
Thank you
Aisha G of HartlynKids
So glad you are transparent. It really helps.
glamazini
🙂
2fancie
You were missed.
glamazini
Awwww, thank you that’s so nice.
Roe
Thanks for sharing Ini, it does help to see that your not the only one going through a funk at times. Because sometimes when looking through Facebook and blogs it looks as if everyone’s situation is always peaches and cream (even tho I understand that people like to exemplify the positive). But it makes you wonder at times, like am I the only one whose down and out.
glamazini
Exactly why I decided to tell even more. I know others read and think ‘gosh that person’s life seems peachy keen 100% of the time’ and that’s not so. I want people to see that even with the downs there are ups and ALL of it is my life. I press on. Thanks for commenting!
Stephanie
Hey Roshini! I have been thinking of you and I had a feeling you were having a hard time. I even prayed for you and then I saw this and it confirmed my feelings. I pray that you are doing better. Take all the breaks you need. I bind and rebuke the spirit of depression, sadness, suicide, despondency, despair, hopelessness, anxiety/fear, and every other oppressive spirit in the name of Jesus, never to return again. I speak love, joy, peace and soundness of mind into your life in the name of Jesus. I have been through this so, I can relate. Almost 7-8 years, to be exact, but Jesus has delivered me and this is my testimony. Thanks for being transparent, because that takes courage. I heard a series on depression lately that has been a blessing to me by Pastor Steve Schell: http://www.lifelessonsradio.org/ListenNow.asp . Maybe it could encourage you. Be encouraged. You are loved, and you are beautifully and wonderfully made. May God pour His healing balm over your mind and heart and help you to grieve in healthy way and pull you out of the depths of despair. I love you, sis in Christ!
glamazini
Thanks you so much for the prayers and for sharing the series. This thing is real and as much as I wish it was gone, until it is I think my story can help someone else. God bless.
BigTickles
Hugs and prayers sweetie.
glamazini
Thanks 🙂
Sue
Strange, today I wondered why there haven’t been many new posts. Thought you might be going through something. Take heart, it will be well indeed. That’s one my favorite hymns.
glamazini
Thanks!
jay
Thank you for this post Roshni. It definitely takes courage to be so honest and transparent. I too have had times where I go into a funk..not because anything tragic has happened..but just because. It does help to know that those of us who go through that are not alone. I wish and pray for you peace that surpasses understanding.
btmw
God bless you.
glamazini
Thank you 🙂